Simply Stratigis

"You study, you learn, but you guard the original naivete. It has to be within you, as desire for drink is within the drunkard or love is within the lover."
-Henri Matisse

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I had never had much doubt in this relationship, it was all rainbows, ponies and cupcakes for a while, until, well, really just the other day. It was the other night in fact, that I had a whole arsenal of cute, mushy, sappy photography ready to put on tumblr after I was honestly thinking about our first kiss on my drive home. It gave me butterflies and I thought to myself, “Oh I just love him!” Then yesterday it felt like I needed some sort of exorcism to expel the demons that were eating away at my happiness like a hoard of maggots on a small piece of raw meat.  

I honestly despise the way hot tears feel rolling down my face. 

Rarely do I forgive too easily. 
Most times I can’t forgive at all.
I always have my guard up. 
Letting your walls down always invites the possibility of being burned.  

Found a note when I was tidying up my room today with a list of resolutions for this year. I know I wrote them a while back because I found them in my school bag and I hadn’t used that bag in about a month. I’m not one to make resolutions since I so often break them. But these were nice:

-Start with “Fresh” Beginnings

***Clean room
***Do laundry (ALL of it, including hand washing)
***Wash makeup brushes

-Stay off Facebook!
-Eat out way less
-Work out more! At least 40 minutes a day, even if it’s just walking on the treadmill, even if it has to be at 5 a.m.
-Do not even SIT on bed until at least 75% of homework is done.
-Go to church more
-Read the Bible more
-Be more generous
-Smile more  

I erased all messages between Shrek and I from my facebook archive. I had just been harboring them as memory of a really “happy” time for me and I faced some hard feelings and read through them. They were really stupid to be completely honest. A lot of bad flirting and they weren’t that funny. (More his fault than mine… Ha, just kidding. Or am I?) 

It’s always a good thing when they start telling you “Sweet Dreams” 

It’s always a good thing when they start telling you “Sweet Dreams” 

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